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Friday, March 21, 2008

On This Day 1 Year Ago......

On this day 1 year ago my husband and I thought we were going to have the greatest day together. This was the day we were going to find out if we were having a boy or a girl. It was the day we were going to be reassured everything was OK....... Boy were we mistaken.

8:30am we are in the waiting room at the doctors waiting to have our 20 week ultrasound. I had Steve totally convinced we were having another girl.... He was hoping for a boy, but didn't care either way as long as the baby was healthy. Same with me. We go into the ultrasounds room and we are very excited/nervous. A week earlier I had brought myself into the hospital because I felt like I was dilating. They told me I was crazy and sent me home. So needless to say I was a little worried what we would find at this appointment.

Anyway the ultrasound is started, the first thing the tech asks is "do you want to know what it is?" OF COURSE we do! She pauses, looks at Steve and says He has a penis! I thought Steve was going to pass out cold on the floor, he was SOOOO Excited as was I, I was shocked actually. It was such a happy moment we really weren't paying attention to the rest of the test... a few minutes go by and I look over at the tech. She has a concerned look on her face. I looked right at Steve and said there's something wrong. The tech looked at me and said "don't worry, I just want to get the doctor to look at something, why don't you get dressed and I will be right back." A few seconds later my favorite nurse comes in and says "the doctor isn't here right now but will be in just a few minutes, he's going to look at the ultrasound as soon as he gets here, in the meantime why don't you come lay down in another room. Don't worry Erika it will be OK" I knew looking at her she didn't mean that but didn't want me to panic. We go into another room and they make me lay down even though I didn't want to I was too nervous. While waiting in the room I told Steve that I bet they're going to say I am dilated... We heard the doctor in the hallway.. With in a few minutes he came in with a very distressed look and said.. " Erika you are 2cm dilated, with bulging membranes we are calling you an ambulance, but I have to tell you I think you might lose the baby.." The last sentence I heard that day.......

The ambulance came, took me from the doctors office right to the hospital they had a bed ready for me. I looked at the bed and noticed it was tilted upside down... (Trandellenberg they call it) There were so many people in the room, I was panicked and didn't know what to do. They put me in the bed and told me I was going to have to stay in this upside down position, that its really the only hope we had.
They did all kinds of tests on me they had me hooked up to the monitors, I wasn't in labor at all I may have been a little dehydrated. Everything came back fine. The docs came in and said to us " you have a decision to make, you can stay in this bed in this position for who knows how long could be minutes could be months and risk yourself to try and save this baby(meaning I could lose all muscle tone, headaches, infections, blood clots etc all from not moving around) OR you can do what we think you should do and let us induce you today, deliver the baby and let him go."

WHAT! Did you seriously just recommend me letting my child die so that I don't have to be uncomfortable..... Hmmm let me think about that....... Ummmmmm NO!

I told them I would stay this way as long as I could and that they better do everything they could to help us through. They reminded me over and over that I could stay in this bed for 3 weeks and if my son was born at 22-23 weeks the would not intervene and it could all be for nothing. I didn't care, if God forbid that was to happen I would at least have know that I did everything I could to save my son..... From this day forward Steve and did everything we had to to save this baby.....

This was the first day of the rest of our lives.

Go Patriots!!!

Go Patriots!!!
Finally Football season!


Cute

Look at my muscles!

Look at my muscles!

No Oxygen!

No Oxygen!
So who does he look like????

VAPO THERM!!!!! Yipee!!!

VAPO THERM!!!!! Yipee!!!
Look at me I'm on VapoTherm now! You can see my fat cheeks!

July 5, 2007

July 5, 2007
First day no oxygen...

Apnea study

Apnea study
On Monday 7/2/07We participated in an Apnea study for UMass Medical School, it is a study to try to prevent apnea in preemies.


Colee holding Bryce

Faythe Holding Bryce

We're home!

Fist time trying out the carseat before going home

Cute!

Cute!



Daddy and Bryce

Daddy and Bryce
Finally I remembered to take a picture!

Sleeping...

Sleeping...

Just to get an idea of how small Bryce is, that is my hand and its almost twice the size of him. This pic is from last week.

2lbs. 11.6oz.

Coming out for my first tubbie!

Coming out for my first tubbie!

My first Tubbie

My first Tubbie
Anne (bryce's nurse) Putting him in the tubbie for the first time

The Mommy Massage!

The Mommy Massage!
Ahhh... This is the life!

Mmmm... Fingers!

Mohawk!!!!

Mohawk!!!!
Anne not only gave Bryce his first tubby, but she also gave him his first Mohawk!

I'm only the cutest baby EVER!

I'm only the cutest baby EVER!

Mad??? What gave you that idea?

Mad??? What gave you that idea?

Peek-A-Boo

Peek-A-Boo
So in this game what comes after you put your hands over your eyes???

Bryce trying to pull out his breathing tube

Bryce trying to pull out his breathing tube
Is this thing really NECESSARY??

Bryce holding onto a toy instead of his breathing tube and pulling it out!

Mom pretty sure you should have someone else take the picture and not try to do it yourself!

Just Me and My Mom!

Just Me and My Mom!
May 8, 2007

Even on bad days I'm still so Cute!

Please NO MORE PICTURES!

Please NO MORE PICTURES!
Would you stop with the camera already!

Clean blankets, clean bum what more can a boy ask for??

Boy am I tired!

Boy am I tired!

Changing my Bed

Changing my Bed
Mom gets to pick me up while my nurse changes my bed

Happy Birthday Mommy!

Happy Birthday Mommy!
First time I ever got to hold Bryce

Best birthday gift a mom could have aked for.